Frozen on stage

So I'm currently in the depressing aftermath of a bad gig.

there are 2 reasons why I bombed this gig and I'm fully aware of them. first was that I froze, my first night as a compare at this bar and I stood in the corner of the room, 90% of the room were not there for comedy, most were just there to drink and be loud. I started my set, and just forgot the words, and the fact I became aware of it instantly lead to me trying to distract myself by looking a smudge on the bar. after a good 10 seconds of silence I found my footing and managed to start to salvage it, until I was heckled.

i had a comeback in my pocket just incase someone started talking but this was full out anger. "weird, I don't remember playing the music or brushing my hair but apparently its the f**king muppet show" after this he interjected every 20 seconds or so, sometimes with a grunt, other times with "you're a f**king c**t mate" and yet when ever I started to talk to him he would go silent, really messing with the flow and meaning I had to start from scratch every single time.

i doubt anyone reads this blog and if they do it means they actually do care about my comedy, i've got 2 gigs coming up in the next 2 weeks, and whilst i'm supremly confident off the stage, the anxiety is overwhelming its something i have to work on but i dont know how



hope you have a good weekend

Josh

2012: the Olympics, end of the world and stand up comedy

It’s been a long time since I’ve done any writing on my blog, and i doubt anyone still reads it, so forgive me if I'm a little rusty, last year was the beginning of my stand-up; I managed to squeeze in 6 whole gigs (I know who’d have thought anyone would have that much spare time!), Become single again and get a job. And after just a few months in the working world I find myself grovelling at the feet of the cruel ex-girlfriend that is education crying “oh god, I was wrong, take me back, I hate it here!” Now back in college and with a local venue to compare at I'm currently in a really good place right now.

One of the main problems with doing stand up in Kent is that it is a pain in the arse to find a venue to play at, the two I can get to regularly are “the orange” and “platform 5 wine bar”, one night last week I plucked up the courage to ask the owners of platform 5 if I could compare their open mic night, and amazingly they’ve let me do it! If I manage to pull of this night I might actually have a consistent source of gigs in the local area, that’ll be huge as I won’t have to travel to London every time I have a new 5 mins.

I'm applying to do stand up comedy at university, call it a mistake if you’d like but I really cannot think of anything I’d like to do more, and I do often wonder why I am shunned meanwhile universities are swarmed with art students? 

I'm not quite sure what to make of the Olympics, personally I have no indication to watch any of it, despite the rarity of the situation it still seems to annoy me, I think it falls back to when I was younger and the Olympics were on instead of cartoons. Somewhere in my psyche, I don’t think I’ve forgiven them for that..

Any who this blog should really pick up steam, it’s a big year, and I’ve got big plans.

Josh